An addiction I can't deny

31 October 2005

i'm glad to be home.
i'm tired, i'm sleepy, i think i'm gonna have a headache.

superduper heavy rain this morning. i don't like.
handed in option form. i pray i don't regret.
3saintanne - math better than science
3saintelizabeth - science better than math
mine's definitely 3anne then. lol. according to melissa la. she says those orange form people who chose double science most likely get through. i guess, it's both comforting and saddening. oh wells. like i said a million times to myself, let everything take it's cause.
packed canned food. simple as a snap of fingers, except, easier.
redcross meeting outside art room. about camp and all. logistics. now, what do i require? stress ah. ><

went tiong. had macs. double cheeseburger. YAY! changed. went arcade. car racings were full. bishi bashi's kelly's blue button wasn't working. time crisis. WHOOHOO! new accomplishment. we made it pretty far this time. hahaha. cos we inserted more tokens. teehee. we really should get on to some other games. rather than sticking to the same old, same old.
went macs. got an ice cream. walked to zhangde. flyers time. eh? AIYA. i hate kids okay. especially the super annoying ones. the cute ones, are cute la. but some are just annoying. i know, i was annoying once too. but i was shy last time la, still am, but not as bad la. HA.
tuition, did zuowen. okay la. there's jiarong to guide me along, prompting me. which is good. (:

no plans for tmr. WHOOHOO! i'm gonna sleep late, and i'm gonna wake up late. and i have dinner tmr night. at anita's place. wonder how she's coming along. it's been what? three years since we last met.

i need to go shopping for pretty pretty clothes soon. i need to get jiarong's approval. i need clothes. probably go get a pretty pretty skirt. and what top la. also must be pretty pretty right. erm, pretty pretty meaning formal. aiyo. like that ah, troublesome la. i don't know what to wear. ): i think i need to buy. i want a pretty pretty skirt. that is long at one side, and longer at the other. and a blouse. then i'm set. AIYO. then i guess it only goes with heels. you now what, all i need now is a handbag. YIKES. no way! however.. I WISH I WISH I WISH. it'll take a miracle for ___ to ___.

i don't believe what you said is true. i do believe, you said that just to make me happy. cos i've never seen any of it for my very own. i swear it's impossible, and i know it ain't real. i can trust my own instincts fairly well. yep, FAIRLY.

Striker
17:49

30 October 2005

i slept at 4am cos i was reading a book. how much more bookworm-ish can i get? it's the holidays. at least i'm spending it wisely. (: i gave up on romeo and juliet. it's way too chim.
i want to go to the library and borrow one whole pile of romance novels, cooping myself up at home, in the airconditioned room, under a blanket, and reading em. then cry at parts when it's superduper sweet or sad. YUPP. i'm crazy. when you see me next year? i probably turned into a bookworm. teehee.

woke up at around 10.30. went for congre meeting. it was okay la. i'm pretty excited about the big move man. EXPO! ((:
went for dinner at pastamania.

tmr.
school.
work.
tuition.
maybe i'll drop by the arcade a little while. too much is bad for you man.

i need those song poetry writing things right now. to pour out everything man.
what i lack? an electric guitar to jam on. ):

you're not talking to me. WHY?
i'll say something.

Striker
22:18

29 October 2005

parents are on the way home.
they went for steamboat. without me. ): terence was there. i'll be able to survive with him. he's a really sweet 11 year old kid.. but no, they just don't want me there. aiya. ):

watched harry potter 3 today. hahaha. parents were annoying me, asking me to do this and that while i was watching the show. grr. but it was okay la. hm.
went for service. i thought it was meaningful.
dinner at macs. fattening like hell can. went to the library with joyce. borrowed some interesting books. SURE. you're calling romeo and juliet interesting? i can't understand one shit inside the book la. but i still wanna read it. it's just so.. romeo, romeo, where far art thou romeo. haha. i like the name romeo. it's so romeo-ishly romantic. -faints*
took a bus home. parents were supposed to fetch me from church or kelly's place. they still weren't finish when i called. and kelly went home already. oh wells.

congre meeting tmr. at tc, marine parade. why not tct, bukit merah. aiya. then need to go expo some more. HM. I WONDER. how about going airport after that. hahaha. can't wait for 11 december to arrive. changi AIRPORT here we come! not expo ah. hahaha. go airport and do crap stuff. SHITTY. can't go airport la. parents picking me up to go pastamania. oh wells. that ain't too bad anyways. teehee.

i've got a busy week ahead of me. ):

plans for week 1 of school holidays.
monday: school, work, tuition.
tuesday: deepavali, going anita's place. so HMPFS. i'm not going for talentime practice. (:
wednesday: school, work, tuition.
thursday: family day ah. i think.
friday: open house. sigh. gotta be in school at 7.30pm. til 3pm leh. ): i hate kids. they're annoying. i know i know. i was once one too.

plans that i really wish will happen during the holidays.
out with zhihui on 7november. SKY HIGH.
HARRY POTTER.
CHRONICLES OF NARNIA: THE LION, THE WITCH AND THE WARDROBE.

things that i really wanna buy.
ripcurl/quiksilver flipflops.
a pencil case.
a belt.
a top.
it totals up to $72.
i've already saved up $50. and then i've got $33 for this week's and next week's job pay. and i've still got remainder. (: well. minus the belt already. so i now need $55. i only have $33 now. aiyo. i feel so contented now man. teehee. i wonder why. lol.

Striker
21:48

28 October 2005

liquid dreams ; o-town
used to love that song. still loving it. (:

third post in just a short span of time? aiyo. i'm just super bored la.
i haven't been off the com since 3pm. and it's already 8.15pm. sigh. bad for your eyesight ah.
mm. don't know if i should eat dinner la. i'm not really hungry. maybe i'll just eat the yummy bread my dad bought. and watch television - harry potter!
YES YES YES!
my night just got more interesting! (:

it's been listening to music. online gaming. and reading stories on quizilla. some are just really good. sigh. old habits die hard, don't they? aiya. how can like that? quizilla is addictive. you just long for the day that person updates. sounding like some despo woman. -.-'

clarence tried to offered me a job $30/day at lego at millenia walk. good offer. didn't take it up. i'll just be spending spending spending. besides, think i have the time? sheesh.

where are you?
it's been too long since we've last talked. you're not dropping by this weekend. we need to catch up on things.

Striker
20:14

the school year's over. everything's over. it makes you think, when ms yew spoke for the last time to 2clare. it just seems as if she just knew us, just met us, just taught us. but it has been 10 long months. all the cliques you've changed. all the new friends and juniors you've made. all the people you hate. haha. irrelevant. but hey, it's the end of secondary two. you're moving on to upper secondary. you're gonna be in a whole new situation. whole new life, whole new group of friends. everything's gonna be new. just like when we were secondary one. it seems like you're still new to the school. it's like you just came in not long ago. but it has already been 2 long school years. 20 months. time flew really quickly. for twoschool years, we've been part of the same class. and now, you're splitting already? everyone wants to go to the same combination as your friends. but will you make it? you want different subjects. different combination. it's hard to stick together. sure, maybe next year you'll say you still wanna stick together. but how long will it last before one by one, they find their own group of friends. one by one, it gets smaller. and slowly, it disappears. it's as if reality hit me hard in the face today. time flew too fast, from UnU to NUTS, to KKN. kkn is two months old already. was it that long ago? or was it because we were too busy with things to notice that time flew so fast? the more things you have. the faster time flies. the more you have fun, time flies quickly. it's as if the new school year started just a few days ago. now it's over? well, the new school year of 2006 starts in two months time. are we ready for that? everything flies too quickly. i think i'm growing up too quickly. maybe i should have studied harder. maybe i should have stuck to what i believed in. maybe i should have tolerated. maybe i should have, maybe i should have.. it's too late to regret. it's too late to do anything. it's just time to kick back, and allow everything to take it's cause. cos what's meant to be, was just meant to be. you'll go through pain, you'll go through happiness. but you can't change reality. it can hit you in the face at the wrong time, and it'll be too late to turn back, you'll just have to regret.
it's the end of the school year, i've never done any reflecting. but now i am? it's strange how people can change for the worse and the better sometimes. this ain't the full reflection. it'll probably be too long to type out. sigh. end of the year, would be more reflecting to do.

have we treasured anything at all?
i know i didn't.
and i regret that.

-this post is saddening la. ):

Striker
18:24

yesterday-
school was okay. science was 'a life of plants'. pe was irritating. maths was more online gaming. lit was 'of mice and men'. geog was 'pirates of the carribbean'.
talentime practice is just plain sucky la. don't wanna talk about it. hmpfs.

went tiong. changed. had burger king. went arcade. hyper bishi bashi champ. time crisis 2. car racing. no money. went macs. had two ice creams. jiarong came. charmaine dropped by. bought fries. stole some. charmaine left for home. we left for zhangde primary. didn't give out much. went to the letter boxes to drop in. i prefer that.

picked mom up. went singpost, run errands and have dinner.

alarm clock something wrong already la.

today-
mass wasn't that boring. concert was okay la. i like the malay thing. back to class. collected back everything else. and report book. i've got the orange slip of paper. and i've decided on everything already. good enough i guess. results are quite alright. not fantastic, but still averagely acceptable.

it's kinda sad to think that the school year has already ended. how twosaintclare of 2005 will be splited up by 14november. everyone streamed into different classes. somehow, i've longed for the school year to end. so i don't need to see people's faces anymore. yet, reality impacted me today. it's actually quite sad. 2c, 2c. it's the harsh impact of reality, we'll never be together anymore. not like we've ever been united la.

whole house to myself tonight. (:
wonder what i'll do.

british council entree test on 15nov. sigh. do i really want this? it's like $790 for 6 months. yikes. once a week. aiyo. stupid streaming test la. 70 and above then get into the english proficiency class. aiya. what the hell la. i want to improve myself, right?

Striker
15:27

26 October 2005

school was boring today. only 25 out of 39 people turned up. kkn had 8 ppl. only 3 turned up. one's flying away. ): tmr early morning. playing with annabelle and friends is fun. (:
interview was irritating. it was in chinese, i don't know what to say. they took lizhen and sijia. cos dorcas didn't turn up. i didn't know how to say. so i guess they got a replacement, tingting. aiya. but i still filmed. and i'm pretty proud of it. (: although i probably would be edited out. ): hahaha.
training was alright. plannings. uniform inspection. administrative stuff. and boy, it was a lot. talked for more than half an hour. so much plans for the holidays. sigh. i hate year end hols la. there's never any hols the first month. ): mm. i have to go back next monday, wednesday and friday. then the following wednesday. then the following tuesday to wednesday for camp. i'm looking forward to the camp. i wish it was bonding, that'll be fun. if not it's bonding cum training camp leh. yikes. i wonder if any other ccas are gonna be camping. if not at night, it's like. gonna be superbly scary. AHH! i'm scaring myself la. ><
home after that. ate cookies. drank two bottles of yakult. bathed.
went to raffles city. shopped at robinsons. went to the toys department. i felt like a twelve year old kid again. (: dad and i looked at the hasbro games. mom was like 'what are we doing here?' teehee. i still like that nike tee. i like the hugo boss active. round round. superbly cute la. dad says he'll buy and give me the slightly empty bottle. whee. went to mango. saw this racerback. quite okay la. i want the brown one. $13 only. then esprit. saw the jeans. really really nice. but really really expensive. saw this super nice belt la. tie around only. but nah, not even considering.
home. had colourful layered jelly bought from the supermarket. i like. (: too much of it makes you sick. yuck.

i'm broke. i only have $50 savings. ): and i want so many things. i'm glad i have a job. i need money. i need an extra $7. for tmr and the day after.

i hope school ain't gonna be boring tmr. ee. there's pe. ):
i have talentime practice after that.
then going tiong with kelly. change. grab a bite. go arcade. (: then meet jiarong for work.
i'm looking forward to after i get out of school. arcade is addicting. i want car racing and bishi bashi. and i wanna play something else. let's try the house of the dead. BOO!

i want your autograph.
i don't understand why. i'm afraid if i do, i won't be able to take it.

Striker
22:02

25 October 2005

first half of school was games day. floorball-ed. (: 2c got first. it's seriously a first FIRST for 2c. it's very very rare. captain's ball was good too. third place. (:
mm. chinese was boring. i fell asleep. i was superbly tired la.
had fishball noodles again for lunch. i really love fishball noodles man. hoho.
bathed a while. made plans to meet kelly earlier.
met melissa ma'am on the train. eek. I DID NOT SEE ANYTHING.
headed to kelly to popular. wanted to get something. but it was so expensive la. i remembered the one i got was less than $5. grr. okay.
went arcade. played car racing one. i'm horrible at turning corners. played time crisis 3. BANG BANG AH. played two rounds of hyper bishi bashi. i spent like 5 tokens there la. hehehe.
then went macs to meet jiarong. had a waffle cone twist. (: nicole came. we did some editing to the flyers. and we were off to radin mas primary.
it was raining heavily la. wanted to take out my cap. but i took out my discman as well, and it fell onto the wet wet floor. heartpain. better excuse to get a ipod nano anyways. teehee.
rain stopped. flyers distribution isn't what i expected la. but it's better off than doing nothing. i'd rather those where you really give out a lot. just on and on. no stoping you. cos the people just keep walking by. sigh. haha. aiya. but the job, some were nice, some smiled and said thank you. (: hahaha. when i give out flyers, somehow, i say 'excuse me' and then 'thank you'. hahaha. but really really softly. those friendlier ones i'll say louder. hahaha.

i have tuition that starts next week. chinese. by wu lao shi. none other than my cell leader ah, jiarong. ): $160/mth. twice a week. AIYO. HEADACHE AH.

i have cca tmr la. and it's annoying. one moment they say need to bring uniform, then they say no need, then need again. grr. i haven't fixed it up yet, nor folded it. AIYA.
does that mean friday no cca? i wish leh. i wanna stay at home for once. and watch my harry potter 3. unless seriously, school ends early. then.. i don't know. nah. i just went arcade today. next time la. i've still got work the following week and the following week. sigh. story telling? and more flying. okay, flyer duty. haiya. i better not regret this. i want the slippers. i want the pencilcase. i want the belt. i want a higher allowance. ): -knocks head. DREAM ON.

i shall go plan my holidays. seriously the stuff i wanna do. that doesn't involve going out. hahaha. real stuff man. i'm gonna plan. whether i stick to it, that's a whole new thing.

school life's coming to an end.
the days are somehow getting more depressing.
yet more uniting.
i don't know man.
it's confusing. but it's all gonna end.
it can be both a good and a bad thing.
actually, it is both a good and a bad. ):

Striker
21:58

24 October 2005

TIME MACHINE !!!
I LOVE !!! (:
WHEEHEEHEE. was SAYING the song the whole day.

school was like a talking session la. TALK AND TALK.
what's the point in going to school la. AIYA.
after school was char siew rice. (:

i start work tmr. (:

harry potter movie marathon just now. couldn't watch the third movie. i was in need of some computer. so i guess i'll watch that some other day. sad la. the day before the fourth movie i'm gonna watch it.

nothing much today la.
except.
___ damn bad. GRR.
whole day already leh.

it's over. i swear i can't take it anymore.

Striker
21:20

23 October 2005

cell was okay la. talked about the outing. supposedly to sentosa. but now to east coast? aiya. talked about the jobs. next tuesday to friday. i wanna go. i wanna earn $33. (:

church was okay lor. kept on eating sweets. ordered my big move tshirt already. size S, i wonder if i'll regret it. see who wanna change with me lor. but it seems to fit fine. i guess my mom should have been there. hahaha.

had dinner. then dessert. then charmaine's parents sent me and kelly backed to gillman. talked about the future. what subject combi to take. what subjects. who's the teacher.

went for supper with parents to zion road. talked about my subject combi. decided on 3.1. and the subject already. future banker, here i come. (: i guess it's better to have all three sciences although go jc can only take H1 for physics and chem. so i guess it's alright la. dad says be a rocket scientist? i'm like, oh my gosh. it's not easy you know. you gotta be super pro and super creative. whoa. earn big money man. whoosh. but you've gotta start of small. like a relationship officer or something. nothing related to rocket scientist, it's too far off. dad says he'll hire a cab to fetch me to jc every day! whoohoo. that's if i wear a rjc or njc or hcjc or vjc uniform la. hahaha. super motivational can. someone motivate me to study hard next year! i really wanna study hard and get good grades and get into the school i want, the university i want, the course i want, the job i want, and be happy! (: i have a goal!

i start work next week. i can't wait! (:

#1: you ah. sometimes i wonder, can i really do without you? hahaha. yesterday proved to me that i can't. i wonder what life would be without you man. it'll probably feel empty. but i really miss the old days when it was just us.

#2: i don't understand. we can talk as per normal online. but in reality, we have nothing to say? nothing to relate? or am i running from you? times were better before, when you were still around. but now, you're so far away. life felt empty. i got used to it. we still kept in touch la, but suddenly, when i saw you, it felt as if we were strangers and we've never met, and that i'm shy? what the hell? not possible man. i want the old times back, when we were like best friends. aiya. i jsut don't like the way it is now.

#3: i wanted to list a whole lot of things down writing about you. i wanted to tell the whole world what a big fat poseur you really are. but i thought if i wrote it down, and if you saw, it'd be horrible. so i was nice, i didn't write a thing. if not it'll be one whole chunk of meaness. i've just got one thing to say, i hate you, for real.

great..
i'm in love with the click five.
it's fanatical. the last time i was fanatical, it was horribly funny. so i guess, here we go again.

Striker
18:03

22 October 2005

just went to the doctor's to get some cream thingy. hahaha. then went for lunch. talked a lot with my mom. it's fun. it's been quite long since i've last talked and laughed with my mom.
she said if i was 16. she would be able to get me a job at DBS. but i'm underage. hahaha. i'll be running errands earning a few hundred a month. how cool would that be? i told her, after o levels, i'll get that job. (: how cool would it be, working in a bank. first shot at what it'll feel like being a banker. SHEESH. i'll just be helping people photocopying things and light computer work and stuff. hahaha. jiarong has experience being a temp, can go ask her. hahaha.
mom says, not going anywhere for the holidays. ): but me and her, going shopping, and eating, and high tea! (: cos she still has her two weeks block leave. wheeheehee!
i think she allows me to work. but not everyday. so it's all good. i'll give her 20% of what my pay. so, for every $5, i give her $1. hehehe.

i missed work yesterday. and it'll happen next friday too. aiya. i wanna be on flyer duty. and not reading books to annoying little kids. GRR.

it's nothing on today. ): church, church and church. and eeyer. annoying shit la.

Striker
13:26

21 October 2005

got back science results today. (:
i don't care if others also got high high grades. i got a 71, and i'm happy with it. at least it wasn't another C.
art was a B. chey. it's digital art la, and my drawing wasn't that nice anyways. heh. but it's all good. (:

i'm pretty happy with my results this time round. okay, so there are a mixture of happiness and disappointments. but it's all good. at least it's over. but now, people are fretting over streaming results. i don't like. it's stressful.

okay. so after results was this long long LONG talk by mr francis. about nyaa and blah blah blah. heheh. i wonder where's my booklet? aiyo. i really couldn't be bothered already. but it's only one component left. aiya.
then early recess. at least i thought it was early. went up to class early. 10.25 leh. hahaha. super early. there wasn't really any teacher in class la. ms yew came in some time in the middle to let us check our sa2 results. 62%. goody! (: it's just one percent less than ca2. hahaha.
kkn were taking photos over and over. hahaha. that's one group. you can see the distinct groups in class. haha.
went down to theatrette for assembly. *yawns* it was okay la. but it was boring. aiyo. sat until butt pain la.

once again, i didn't have fishball noodles after school like i said i would. i had porridge instead. aiyo. when will be the day man. two days already. ):

nothing on tmr again la. boring-ness. YAWN.

i think i'm pmsing. everything's getting irritating.

Striker
21:04

20 October 2005

YOHOHO.
today was one screwed day. but hey, my dad's talking to me, much more friendlier now at least. (:

what a way to start school, with a long long talk by the principal. there were the boring points. and there were the points that hit me hard. the choices you make really affects your life la, SHAHILIA. you can't always stick to the easy way out. but hey, no one said it'll be horrible. haha. trust me, i almost died during the talk.

the papers came. sigh. maths first. i was pretty disappointed with paper 2. heh. but it was okay la. i had one mark more. (: paper 1 was awesome! ((: just called tuition teacher. pleased with results leh! whoohoo! but that's like only maths la. results below la. then got back home economics. haha. even my dad says it's not important. hahaha. then geography. it was pretty disappointing la. but i didn't study super hard. so i guess i deserved it. ): recess was just a really short one. after that was literature paper. AIYA. SUPER DUPER DISAPPOINTING LA. )))): i studied really really hard. i really realy thought i could score this time round. but i didn't. i FAILED. ): i've failed lit overall la. how to take pure lit next year, YOU TELL ME. i failed in SA1. i failed in SA2 also la. so how to pass. how to take pure lit. might as well die la. i don't want pure history. that's TERROR, i tell you.
went back to class for one period. "lesson's resume" ya right la. no teacher. i was reading shahilia's smash hits!. perfecto. jesse mccartney. (: wheehee. charlene they all were like taking funny photos. heh. depressed? hahaha. aiya. then went language lab. went through maths papers. see who can get extra marks. i couldn't be bothered la. aiya. then it was just boring la. arrange tables back. grr. came home. made a sandwich. egg and cheese. whoohoo. i loved the egg. lots of pepper. hehehe. then ah. put on the bread ah. then the cheese melted. woaho. looked super yummy can. and it was la. (: had miso soup after that. lol. then watched a little bit of tv. and fell asleep. dad woke me up. he went to buy dinner. i went to bathe. he came back. i finished bathing. hahaha. how perfect timing. lol.

i want combination 2. i really do. but what if i can't make it? combination 3.1 is like.. pure biology? RARR. I DON'T KNOW LA.
you get back report book and the colour coded option form next friday. you have the weekend to decide. then you go back to school on monday to return. you go back on the 14november to collect streaming results. i'm freaking out, totally.
the pressure! the horror!
more like the irritating-ness. ><

can't wait for next friday. (:
or the holidays.
movies. shopping. sleeping. :D
most importantly, holiday-ing.
LEGEND OF ZORRO [27october]. SKY HIGH [03november]! HARRY POTTER [17november]! CHICKEN LITTLE [1december]. THE CHRONICLES OF NARNIA: THE LION, THE WITCH AND THE WARDROBE [22december].

semestral assesment 2 ONLY.
english - C
chinese - D
emath- A
science - coming soon!
geography - C
literature - D
home economics - B
digital art - coming soon!

imagine this was o levels. my L1R5 from these subjects that i already know. which is exactly six for now. would be.. *drum roll* -.-' 29 points. ))): somebody please motivate me to work harder next year. sigh.

-disappointments

Striker
20:10

19 October 2005

no games online today man. i've been playing too much. and today, i have no time. hoho. you know what. i can't live without playing any game. sigh. -addiction number one.

couldn't sleep last night. smsed into 987fm. whoohoo! and it got read out! (: like anyone heard like that la. -.-' hahaha. lucky lucky day man. hahaha.

woke up at 6am. don't ask me why. switched on the radio. MARI KITA RAKYAT SINGAPURA. -.-' put it on sleep 30. fell asleep shortly after. woke up at 8.25. alarm rang at 8.30. changed. washed up. out of the house. reached tiong mrt at 9.15. thought i'd be late when i get to great world. so took a cab. $3.80. $1 extra. grr. missed the merz by one person. ): okay. and who knew, i was the earliest. waited a while. bought a magazine. wheeheehee. i bought teenage. jesse mccartney poster! hear that shahilia! HA. okay. had breakfast at macs. took a cab down to school bus stop. picked up dorcas. reached kelly's place at 11am. luvenia was already there. heh.
did some dance practice. ordered pizza. hawaiian and pepporoni. (: sat down. talked and gossiped. 2pm. dorcas left. the remaining four went safra, bowling. badly done. ): had two baskets of fries. haha. and i had two bottles of plum juice. it's nice. went arcade. spent $8 there. most of em on racing. the thrill ride one is too freaky la. it's like super dee duper dangerous man. it's scary. haha. bang bang can scream one leh. well, i did. hahaha. (: i love okay. air hockey, was like not working can. ): kel and i spent like 4 tokens each on racing games. haha. kel played one boxing one. that was funny. cos it's supposed to be single player. but it became quadruple player. hehehe. went back at around 5pm. wanted to play pool, but needed resident's card. annoying la. went to the playground. swing swing a bit, more like a lot. haha. walked back. talked. went home. arcade-ing was fun. but safra one was no big deal man. need to go some place else. more choices. more fun.

today was a long day. but it was fun. (: i love driving RECKLESSLY. hahaha. bang here, there, everyone man! (: we shall go arcade one day man. just the three of us. and spend spend spend on everything. AHEM. especially racing hor. and DDR. i love love love. but no one must be watching. embarrassing. teehee. i want play the bang bang one. that's so cool. must find the really really pro pro criminal type one. and air hockey! i want! gosh la. i'm going crazy la. hahaha. aiyo. -addiction number two. ): not good man. it's just throwing away money. i still remember when i was still young. like kindergarten. hahaha. my dad used to bring me to ginza plaza. go play arcade. hahaha. i used to love it there. i loved playing air hockey with my dad. -smiles.

my dad is talking to me more now. we actually had a proper conversation today. (: he can smile some more. -wishes. but it's still not quite the same. ):

didn't watch oth. ): was out for dinner.
i saw these nice nice flats at bata. pretty pretty. but it's bata.. BUY AND THROW AWAY. hahaha. i don't really like bata things la. but it's nice la. $15. i want i want i want. i want pretty slippers. so i can wear when i don't feel like wearing shoes. hahaha.

Striker
19:05

18 October 2005

just now, was on the com from like 11 til 1.40. i was playing games. really no life can. aiyo. don't know why i can't download shockwave macromedia. it's annoying la. cannot play. went from miniclip to yahooligans to funschool to cartoonnetwork to neopets to COM CRASH. okay, not entirely, but the restarting crap again.

dad's talking to me now, but not that much. aiya. ):

what have i done today? woke up at 9am. so early can. aiyo. watched tv. had breakfast. watched some more tv. used com. watch tv. had lunch. watch some more tv. fell asleep. off the tv. took a nap. bathed. guitar (: . now i'm here. really no life la.

i have plans for tmr. that's good right? hahaha.
what's the bang bang noise la! irritating leh.
okay. tmr, i don't know. meeting kelly and honey for breakfast perhaps? at great world, tiong bahru, wherever la. i wanna be out of the house la.
then there's the talentime dance practice. >< i don't like la. we never get anything done, it gets annoying really. IRRITATING. i'm suddenly very against it la. it's like, thinking about it, it's really horrible la. RARR.
oh wells. maybe going swimming after that. play pool or something la.
___ probably just wants me away. ):
thinking about really can make me cry. i yearn for the day we talk like best friends again.

how to go library when my mom just gave me three books to read. aiya. i want the book, left behind. i really really want. the whole three series! (: haha, but if it's not a novel form, i'm not gonna read it. heh. what's there tonight? i don't know. i just don't want to stay at home.

life is screwed.

Striker
17:31

17 October 2005

i really can't bring myself to tell my mom la. it's just horrid can. ):
i guess my expectations were too high. well, now i know what disappointment feels like.
HORRIBLE.
spent the whole day watching tv la. fell asleep after watching i bet you will on mtv. haha. funny okay. woke up. bathed. then back to the tv. no life one la.

first there was pre exam stress. the franticness of the stress that is to come. what class you'll get in. who you'll be in the same class with.
then there's the exam stress. you study study study until your brain hurts. it hurts if you've never touched the book before. in my case, yeah. you can't sleep because you're frantic about the paper the next day. you get to school sleepy. the morning adds on the stress with ppl going 'test me! test me!'. and everyone else doing last minute revision. trying to cram information into their brain. after the exam, you scream and shout, that certain things you studied really hard for didn't come out. and those that you just scanned through, came out one whole chunk.
then there's the post exam stress. where you panic about your results so much so you can't sleep the night before. when you get your exam scripts, you scream like hell cos you do too badly, or you do too great. you reach home, you panic again. cos you don't know how to tell your parents when you didn't meet their expectations? or you didn't do too well? then you can't sleep at night cos you're thinking about it?

what the hell. i'm freaking out la.
shahilia: i really really REALLY think too much. i finally see that it's really true. haha.
zhihui: i still stand by what you said. PANIC PANIC PANIC. ):

i think too much. i think too far. i have to think about everything. and i already know what subjects i wanna take when i go jc. and if i go poly i already know what course i wanna take. i sort of know what i want to be when i grow up.
is life that stressful?
NAH. i just think too much. ):

-no depression mode this time. i'll cry if i get depressed. i can't take that again. RARR.

Striker
21:51

this song is nice! so punk rock! totally addicted.

hotel room ; mest

I'm all alone in this hotel room
the fear inside of me is uncontrollable
I hear the cars see the sun the sky is blue
and all i can think about is being with you
guess i'm all alone again so

**Do ya think ya know the way i feel
and do ya think ya feel the way i do
cause i'm alone all my friends are home
and soon i'll be there wishing i was here (2x)

never once did i seem to care if i didn't have anybody near
but now i do and i don't know what to say
I feel lost in every possible way
guess im all alone again so

**Do ya think ya know the way i feel
and do ya think ya feel the way i do
cause i'm alone all my friends are home
and soon i'll be there wishing i was here

Do ya think ya know the way i feel
or do ya think ya feel the way i do
cause i'm alone all my friends are home
and soon i'll be there wishing i was here
wishing i was here

wanna call but i know i can't call you
wanna see you but i know i can't see you
wanna touch you but i know i can't touch you
wanna be inside of you wanna be inside of you (2x)

Do ya think ya know the way i feel
or do ya think ya feel the way i do
cause i'm alone all my friends are home
and soon i'll be there wishing i was here
Do ya think ya know the way i feel
or do ya think ya feel the way i do
cause i'm alone all my friends are home
and soon i'll be there wishing i was here
wishing i was here
wishing i was here
wishing i was here
wishing i was here

Striker
13:59

review and reflection. more like retarded and ridiculous.
recess wasn't much.
got back chinese then english papers. chinese was.. a screaming session. desiree said, 'i'm sitting next to two mad people' namely me and charlene lor. hahaha. cos i got back my paper. i got 12.5/20 for letter. i just screamed. i screamed again when i got back my compo. 13/40! ))): just scream and scream and scream ah! got 40/80 for my paper 2. HORRIBLE LA. ): and my orals are like 21/40. ): in conclusion. i failed my sa2 chinese. WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! ))))))): i have 48%. can cry la. and it's 45%. but i'll pass overall. i'm pretty sure. cos i passed all the others.
english. ___ was just plain irritating and annoying la! okay. compo. 20/30. i screamed. cos it wasn't that bad. haha. got back letter. it was 17/30. also not that bad. hm. charlene and shahilia same same one leh. opposite of me. haha. so it's like three people IN A ROW have the same marks for paper 1. hoho. paper 2. i just screamed when i failed my compre la. 9.5/25 LEH. ))): sad case la! 14/25 for summary. i used to do better. sigh. but it's alright. orals about 24/40. aiya. is my english that horrible? aiyo. overall for sa2 would be like 55%. WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! ))))))))): saddening. i don't like.

went harbour after school with shahilia. aiyo. boarded the 131 only to find out no money. so came down. borrowed 5cents from mer. and waited for the next bus. mer and char were going ikea to have meatballs. mm.. yummylicious. (: haha. had yoshinoya. whole day whole life man. no jelly welly. i mean, jelly. disappointment. out of stock. why why, tell me why! had the usual, with lots and lots of chilli this time round, and kikoman sauce. haha. it's nice. shahilia had chilli too, no matter how much she says she hates the chilli. hahaha. went macs after that for dessert. ice cream. hoho. 50cents only ma. hehehe.

took 97. waited for don't know how many lightyears man! irritating. the ride didn't seem so long. cos i was eavesdropping on two boys. SAJC. haha. what CLA thing. then about some girl, called her a slut some more. aiyo. haha. then talk about reading harry potter and the davinci code? haha. i know, i have no life right. intruding into other people's privacy.

no school tmr or the day after. (:
i want to watch fairlyoddparents. and i want burning hot miso soup! and yes, i think i shall have some, indeed. (:

i feel like changing my blogskin. hm. think i shall. but not now. it's tv time.
i'm afraid to tell my mom my results. but i have to. if not, i won't sleep tonight. sigh.

Striker
13:28

16 October 2005

whoohoo. had a yummy yummy breakfast.
it's gonna rain.
my dad's not talking to me. ):
it's gonna be a boring day.
i wish for the mother daughter shopping day to come, quick.
super boredom. i wanna go out some where.
i just want a car ride. :D
but dad's still not talking to me.
petty sia. HMPH.

Striker
12:13

15 October 2005

today was an okay day.
it feels free that the exams are over. and school is sorta over.
cell. jiarong has jobs for us. played pepsi cola. joyce never got to kick anybody out. she was always the first one out. and both thanks to me. haha. jiarong stepped on me. then i lifted up my foot. and stepped on her back. it was accidental la. xD
service was okay.
had dinner at macs.
sour power at 7eleven.
home at 8.50pm. perfect timing. charmaine and my parents came around the same time. haha.

charmaine's ipod nano. so that's how small it is. whoohoo. i love charmaine's songs. (:
hotel room; mest

no plans for tmr.
have to simply watch one tree hill tmr. missed wednesday's one.
i'm in need of some good food. sigh.

Striker
22:01

14 October 2005

WHOOHOO.
i'm feeling hyperish. xD

i'm just high high HIGH UP THERE.

had sizzler for dinner last night. whoosh. felt guilty about being the only one eating a steak. it was yummylicious. (: parents had buffet. but it was good. i loved the soup. and the ice cream. and the pasta. (: haha. i love sizzler la! the bill was $68. haha.

home economics paper was okay la. there's a lot of blank blank blank one leh. can cry one lor. paper started at 0758. i was finished by 0830. paper ends at 0913. i was dying there. fidget and fidget.

next few lines are gonna be in great detail. hoho.
me and shahilia went tiong. had delifrance. walked around. that cd shop, music junction, toilet, popular. hoho. she owed me $11 by then. hahaha. cos i gave her $10 la. haha. LENT i mean. it was 11. went bank. she withdrawed XXX amount. haha. i got back my money! (:
took cab to far east. met at clippers. kim cut hair at rave. marcella only came at 1 plus. then the rest all cut hair. me and shah weren't supposed to. but somehow we did. my mom allowed. haha. aiyo. i was whining away la. but i guess it's quite alright. -i think. first was charlene, then lyanne, then mer, then shah, then me, then zhihui. hoho. i thought my hair looked like somebody's. yeah, sylvester sim. haha. okay. shahilia thought it looked like eric dill's. -faints. my neighbour, nanthini was there. haha.
followed zhihui to her mom's birthday party. it was okay la. haha. mm. about 2.30. zhihui and shahilia changed. shahilia wanna act bung right?! haha.
walked to cine to meet them at galilee. walked past my neighbour, alex. no acknowledgements at all. sigh. i used to play with him at the playground. lol. stole marcella's whipped cream from her dinosaur. stole zhihui's caramel drink. xie xie ni! (: stole most of mer's whipped cream. she let me drink too! whee! xie xie ni! (: marcella gave me 3/4 of hers. cos she couldn't finish. -.-' aiyo. then i was so filled with water. stole one of lyanne's cheese covered wedges. stole one of charlene's fries. hehe.
me, zhihui and shah left for our shopping. haha. first stop, paragon's quiksilver. whoosh! bought a wallet. $12. 50% off. haha. but the white leather one looked super nice! but definitely super ex. wanted to buy the blue pencil case. but didn't. shall buy the brown one next time. erm. when? haha. if kelly's going town, maybe i'll get her to buy for me. heheh. aiya. brown or blue? i don't know man. teehee.
went wisma. topshop. tried a skirt for fun. all tried same black and white shirt. looked so tripletish. haha. i bought. $23. (: stopped outside flesh imp listening to just the girl. haha. no life la. went flash n splash. shah bought her quiksilver pencil case. haha. aiya. i want the ripcurl flip flops. very nice. i shall buy it one day. yes, one fine, fine day. OH. and i want the brown quiksilver bag. hoho. pretty pretty. (: $65. i also saw a nice ripcurl pencil case. but nope, quiksilver is nice nice nice. (: i'll get the blue one, no, the brown one. OH SHUT UP LA. no recess for the last two weeks of school. no going out. no nothing. i'll survive. cos mom promised a shopping day, just the two of us. (: okay. after that. i needed to pee badly man. after the dinosaur i had. haha. mm.
went to ngee ann. went to i don't know the shop name la. a lot of kiddy kiddy things. yes zhihui, the watch very cool. you should buy it man. i think the ty bears are so cute. i love. (: went zara. -.-' walked one round and out we went. haha. went mango. looked around. the mango adores you shirt is nice. i'll buy. i want the i don't know what colour one. haha. ooh. the jacket is nice too. but don't want la. haha. the mng jeans one no more liao. ): i thought the black one was super nice. sigh. went to have pretzel. met char, lyanne and mer. they were heading to pacific plaza. mm. the three of us had pretzel. almost had yoshi. -.-' haha. went taka. went gogo. shahilia bought cheeseballs. i bought a black pepper sausage. (: we exchanged one. haha. the cheeseballs were so cute. haha. went to see stella mccartney. whoosh. i like the slippers. and the orange coloured striped shoe. whoohoo. not intending to buy la. went billabong. i think the brown colour shirt is so cool! (: went to see hello kitty. -.-' anti pink. haha. lingered around the toy department for a while. time to go home man. took the mrt. shah? as usual.

i spent $66.50 today. heart pain. all my savings man. not all. but more than half. ): and still, i wanna buy so many other things. hahaha. but i'll make sure i use it. (: i just need to lose a few inches here and there. haha.

reached home at 6.45. dad didn't say anything. haha. he didn't notice my hair. ): too busy playing text twist. haha. i like that game. hoho.

i'm watching tv till the middle of the night tonight. but i'll probably be too tired.
i've been walking around so much today. talked, and laughed and walked. it wasn't as bad as i thought it'd be huh, shahilia? haha. it was okay.

i'm really crazy over brown things. as in. not brown clothes or shoes or pants. but brown accessories. like bags, pencil cases, wallets. haha. i want a black ripcurl one though. the one that's $19.90. or maybe the $21.90 one. haha. anything la. i'll go see.

OH DEAR ME.
i think i'm turning into a shopaholic.
THAT'S BAD. THAT'S VERY BAD.
i need to win a million dollars. then i'll spend $10,000 shopping. and another $10,000 in redecorating my room. with a split aircon. -gasps. woaho! and i want a bean bag. and a rug. and better floring. and i want the ceiling to be like the night sky, with stars! i want a new table. it's too grafittified. i want different coloured walls. super pretty. DREAM LA.

yupp. i dream too much. and i know, i think too much too.

Striker
20:26

13 October 2005

i'm heading to marina square later. hm. wonder what's the occasion? haha.
yes. i've been on the computer all this while. since like 3pm. it's been three whole hours.

hoho. i'm appearing offline on msn.

home econs paper is gonna suck tmr. i can comfirm you that.

don't my parents have cell? or does only my mom? i don't wanna go out with my mom la. unless we're eating at some posh restaurant, which won't be very likely.

oh no. i wanna watch tong xin yuan! >< haha. i think i'm like an auntie la.

:/
we'll see how everything goes. i know it won't be that bad.

Striker
18:00

YOHOHO. exams are unofficially over.

science paper was definitely not a breeze. but it was manageable. (:

do my parents have sww tmr? i don't know man.

there seems to be nothing to blog man. flipped through the home economics book. don't expect me to know everything. i couldn't be bothered man.

nothing is perfect. hey. who said it ever was? haha.
i'm sick of using cover up.

Striker
15:02

12 October 2005

whoosh! i'm feeling pretty happy. (: that's good right? haha, but in the midst of examinations, people may think that it's insanity. haha.

commanding was okay today la. i wasn't as freaked as the first time. sure i was shivering a bit. but not as bad. lol. i thought must wait for principal, but no, no principal. aiyo. then mr chandran said something, i didn't hear. then amanda was like 'you can begin'. i was like, aiyo. i need warning first can. haha. i was still stoning la. haha.

reached home about 9.30 watched a little television and started studying at 11. i actually studied yeah? memorise few stuffs. but ask me any question at all, i wouldn't know the answer. haha. completed 12 chapters by 1.15pm. pro right? haha. lunch break. til 2pm. bathed. then studied for an hour for 3 chapters. haha. cos i wasn't paying much attention to the book. i was sleepy, i was listening to music. how to pay attention right? haha. but i completed by 3.30pm. and it was nap time. til 7pm. haha. watched tv. out for dinner. then i'm here. haha.

things went pretty well this end of year exams. didn't freak out or anything. it's all good. (: in just a blink of a second the exams are over. sigh. it was only last thursday when we realised our math 2 was the next day. but now. tmr's thursday, and it's the last paper. i'm not counting home economics. sure it's important. but HECK. it's home economics.

i just pray i'll do well for english, maths, geography, literature. science and home economics i have no clue. chinese is just dead dead dead meat. my essay writing must have really sucked. but oh wells. it's over and done with. now i'll just wait for monday to come.

like zhihui said, panic panic panic only.
http://rain-on-me.blogspot.com

when you thought it was over, everything comes crawling. why don't just make it permanent. you're making life difficult for everyone.
it sucks.

Striker
20:47

11 October 2005

SKY HIGH SKY HIGH! I WANNA WATCH SKY HIGH. NOW NOW NOW!

watched broken arrow last night. nice nice nice. (: rated nc-16 when it was out in singapore in 1996. hoho. now i get to watch it. and it's nice nice nice nice. christian slater looked FINE. haha. maybe it's john woo's directing. whoosh!

geography paper was better than expected. i thought i'd be freaking out. but it was alright. i knew how to do at least. :D imagined if i studied. i just read you know. the map of europe. SIGH. i know some. haha. cause mer bugged me to study in the morning. i did. just not the exact location. lots of screaming after the exam. hoho.
came home. did my math tuition hmwk. really really fast. i'm pretty okay about tmr's paper. just gonna bring my pencil case. oh man. commanding la. i'd rather flag raise now. wednesday and friday. grr. i can't take this man. and i need to command for the last week of school as well? this is gonna kill me. -seriously. maybe that's the reason why this week is passing ever so slowly.
tuition went well. just need to call her after exam results are out. -shivers. this is the end. it's nearing the end of the school year - secondary two. i'm gonna be upper secondary next year. IF i were a guy? haha. i'd be wearing long pants. what d'ya want for girls. long skirts? HA.
:/ we'll just let things take it's course...

hm. gotta study hard for science tmr. YAWN. i have to. it's important paper. boohoo. the torture. the horror. have to on aircon to study. if not i'll fall asleep from the immense heat. i'll come home and study study study. then take a nap.

it's over.

Striker
21:03

10 October 2005

my phone battery just died. ):

i do not like to flag raise. it's just scary. what if it drops. what if this. what if that. -shivers.

literature paper went pretty well. i'm hoping for a 60 this time round. erm over 75? a 50. pretty please!

i cannot believe. keira knightley gets married to orlando bloom. HOLD IT. in pirates of the caribbean 3. excitement! wait the curse of the black pearl is out. i'll watch. definitely. somebody lend me the first movie, will you?

strange dreams recently. first about gangsters. me not being one but having great friends who're ones. haha. just today. playing captains' ball? NO LIFE LA. haha. exam stress perhaps. LOL. blame it on exam stress.

still haven't got tammy's present yet. sigh. dropping by IMM later.

studying geography is a chore. nothing can go into my head. therefore i'm reading it. it's better than nothing. fell asleep just now while reading too. sigh. i declare geography boring. i'll take pure lit next year i guess. i'll buy guidebooks. (:

come alive on friday night ;
latest song addiction.

i better say i'm in love with the click five. ((:

Striker
17:03

09 October 2005

Pop Princess (:

i lost myself at your show last night
looking at your sparkling eyes
in the middle of a fresher crowd
you keep living like a movie star
but tell me who you really are
when the lights go down

baby you're a glitter doll
(on the radio)
i dissolve
(in my stereo)
you've got me
(you've got me coming back for more)

pop princess hold my hand
pop princess i'm a fan
pop princess i need you now
(freak me out, tear me inside out)
pop princess make me smile
pop princess drive me wild
pop princess i need you now
(so baby turn your love up loud)

You were hiding in a darkened stall
Waiting on your curtain call
Getting your piece of mind
But I was looking past the glossy stare
I knew who was really there
And I'd like to spend some time

baby you're a glitter doll
(on the radio)
i dissolve
(in my stereo)
you've got me
(you've got me coming back for more)

pop princess hold my hand
pop princess i'm a fan
pop princess i need you now
(freak me out, tear me inside out)
pop princess make me smile
pop princess drive me wild
pop princess i need you now
(so baby turn your love up loud)

Baby girl I think you're radical
But you're a star and I'm fanatical
Can we start, something new
Just between me and you

pop princess hold my hand
pop princess i'm a fan
pop princess i need you now
(freak me out, tear me inside out)
pop princess make me smile
pop princess drive me wild
pop princess i need you now
(so baby turn your love up loud)

pop princess ooh
pop princess ooh
so baby turn your love up loud
pop princess ooh
pop princess ooh
so baby turn your love up loud
pop princess ooh
pop princess ooh
so baby turn your love up loud
pop princess i need you now
so baby turn your love up loud

Striker
09:31

the only thing i have to do today. study freaking literature. i'm halfway through the text. reading it for the first time.

thunder roaring when the sun is up? dark clouds man. it's gonna rain.

laksa for lunch. mom's cooking. whoohoo! (:

mom wants me to go UNSW. aiya. i wanna go SMU la. oh well. lets look at results first, shall we?

cleaned my room yesterday of all junk. i have more to clean up. like textbooks. especially under the sink. magazines to clear too. unused papers. haiyo. after exams i'll clean up. sigh. a lot to clear. somehow i can't wait. i started clearing at 12mn yesterday. and finished and 2am. haha. many would call me retarded. even i would. xD but i'm glad it's all cleared up. another accomplishment! happy happy! ((:

POP PRINCESS! (:

Striker
09:13

08 October 2005

i seriously have no comments about today la. everything feels so sucky.
cell was okay i guess. me, nicole, peishi, laurine, yokeyeong, jiarong, sharon.
church was okay la. kelly brought dorcas. tammy brought mark.
only me, tammy and kelly for dinner. with dalston coming to kachiau twice. hoho. kelly's new buddy. hahaha. next table was jiamin and xiushi.
went kfc. not filled. hehe. then went to the box. waited for parents. i was thinking. would we get married, who would we get married to? and kelly and tammy are just.. they really caused goosebumps la. it's not right man. haha.
sent the two home. dad bought new nike running shoes. pretty pretty!
i think i'll go for encounter. haha. just like the idea of camping. and sleeping in nice conditions. but every encounter is the same old thing, so maybe different experience. but.. can sleep one leh. i'm not squeezing with kelly again. just because of gabriel at the balcony. -.-'

i can live through this. just five more papers. i will hang in there. (:

Striker
22:16

07 October 2005

lunch time. mom's home. mom's cooking. i love! (:
gonna really study literature later. printed out notes from mousetale.
maths was okay today. pretty sure i can pass. hoho. screwed up one question. ): pythagoras' theorem. i can just go bang my head in the wall la. -bish. maybe going out later. imm or something. mom wants to go shopping. during exams! haha. but she promised a shopping day after exams. (: i swear they're bribing me. haha.

accomplishment.
1. i've saved $59 so far.
2. i can play notes on the guitar. self learned. (:

Striker
11:28

06 October 2005

whoohoo. blogger's back to normal. with the blah blah blah things where they're supposed to be. (:

i like the tagboard. it's so funky! (: haha. yes, i did it all by myself. with the colour picker. without the pictures, it looks cleaner. i couldn't change the border to black. i don't know why. it said black, but it came out hotpink. grr. if not yes, it'll be all black and white. i think i'm getting better at html. i can't tell you the html. but give it to me, and i'll edit what i can. haha. anyways. i'm pretty happy with what i have now. if only i could change the border colours la! hmpfs.

today is one screwed day. teachers rushing us like hell. ms yew has been rushing literature for don't know how long. science was okay. self studying. virtual image, real image, oh what crap la. pe, was just me, shahilia and samantha and a cockroach named ___. haha. math was rush rush rush. she kept us for like 10 extra minutes just giving out her worksheets. aiyo. we had a lot of practice for paper 2. but hasn't anyone realised that we haven't got any practice for paper 1? doesn't anyone complain that she only told us that we have to memorise formulas TODAY? screwed like shit la. next lit class was better. charlene, shahilia and me were talking. geography next. aiya. also rush like don't know what - the workbook.

tuition was slow paced. that's good. my teacher came while i was eating a plum. so i placed in the freezer. to freeze all the virus. haha. stupidity la.

i have a blocked ear. that is annoying me. no lost for me tonight. shall have an early sleep and a focused mind for maths 2 tmr. somehow, i wish i could take the paper now. sigh. where i stand -i'm prepared for maths. couldn't care less about home ec. pretty okay with literature. totally not prepared for geography and science. it's pretty few papers. haha. my orals are gonna pull me down. ): i'll just let everything take it's cause.

i'm going shopping on friday. i don't care. i have to buy something on that day. i just have to man. and probably going clippers to cut hair. it's cheaper than reds you know. haha. then all come out with same hairstyle. HAHA.

Striker
19:59

05 October 2005

i'm officially sick. YES. sick. won't be surprised if i'm down with fever tmr. but exams are just next week. oh man, this is super horrible. i can't focus when i'm sick. ):
STAY 10 FEET AWAY FROM ME. if not you'll catch the virus in 10 hours. haha. seriously la.
i can feel it man. i'm getting aches here and there. and that normally leads to a fever. A FEVER, you hear?!

today was. CHARLENE TEO, NEVER COME SCHOOL AH. ):
okay. pastoral care wasn't self study time like ms yew wanted. it was thinking time for me. it's a lot of things, that has happened over the past month or so. and i set shahilia thinking. HAHA. i don't know man. if it happens, you surely know where i'm going. it's definite. and no one speaks for me. i can't leave her alone. i just can't. i can't say out everything that i was thinking. cos certain things are just personal. while others, are just personal. it's all school stuff. no other stuff.
chinese was boring la. listened to wileen's ipod. watched them play blackjack then bluff. wileen can't lie to save her life, nor can she play blackjack either. haha. neither can marianne. hoho.
i swear, i'm not taking biology next year.
recess was all about a lizard. and kelly's just gross gross gross. the lizard got all the fame, sadly, no fortune. hahaha. not funny.
art was a rush. helped mer and zhihui scan pics. and i'm rushing all the way. completed my art. it ain't perfect, but it's what i could do. haha. sigh. should have darkened the outlines with the brush man. aiya. too late already la.
literature was some more thinking time. yet not as much. it's just strange it tell you. strange strange strange!

didn't go for lit. half the class didn't go la. so heck man. hm. i have hmwk. but i have no energy to do la. i'm really tired. temperature. 37.1 degrees. ): sad sad sad case ah!

no stress levels anymore, it just makes me even more stressed.

Striker
21:08

04 October 2005

hoho. i hope my com doesn't reboot on its own again. cos i'm running a lot of things. too much information, and it'll go KABOOM. haha. okay.

okay. still a bit of sore throat but that's okay. haha. maybe mer's strepsils helped. heheh.
now i've got running nose la, or blocked, whatever la. a bit here there. merry christmas to me man. grr.
i don't wanna fall sick. bad bad BAD timing. ):

listening to backstreet boys brings back memories, of the vcd that my mother dropped into a hole. it's still there, but it's narrow man, i can't take it. i love that vcd la. sigh.

didn't study today. did tuition hmwk, instead of math that is due tmr. aiya. the irritating cgs paper la. i don't even know how to do can. anyway. HECK. i'll do later perhaps.

walao. today already had chinese paper, tmr still there's chinese. it's irritating man. you know, IRRITATING. zhang lao shi is just gonna talk about the chinese paper man. KABISH.

okay. so the com didn't go bonkas. i think i'm suddenly in love with the click five. haha. just cos of.. i'm bored bored bored.

you set us thinking. are we still one? or are we.. this is what i call a life threatening situation. don't know how to say, you know you'll say it best, when you say nothing at all. i have no idea. this is confusing. sigh. of all the times, it had to be now, now, NOW? what are we now man? reply, or don't reply. I DON'T KNOW LA.

*stressed scale: 6
[look out for daily updates]

Striker
21:02

chinese paper is screwed screwed screwed. you should have seen what i wrote on the question paper. hahaha. it says 'bangs head on wall'. aiyo. essay writing is like.. i can't write it out. the language paper is like.. i don't understand the passage nor the question. why so difficult one. i won't be surprised at all if i fail. ): i don't want to fail chinese. i used to be good at it.

very annoying la. i wanted to do the webpage for redcross. but, aiya, so annoying can. set up account too young, can't do geocities. grr.

it's over, you know it, and i know it. we all know it man.

lords of dogtown; i'm afraid i'll get addicted to skateboarding after that. lets watch something else, now can't we? hoho.

Striker
15:39

03 October 2005

whoohoo. i'm completed my studying plan for chinese tmr. okay. so i'm gonna do some last last minute revision tmr. just to refresh what i've memorised so far. i'm glad. i like accomplished missions. (:

sore throat is irritating la. i don't mind having a cough. i guess i'm falling sick. aiya. exams right? MUST BE LA. stress, not enough sleep, studying, problems equals falling sick. first you have a sore throat. then you have a running nose. then a blocked nose. then you start coughing. then you start coughing with phlegm. or it could be. you have a sore throat. then a running nose. then you wake up one morning having a fever. then you stay at home and get well. sigh. it's exam period. BAD BAD BAD.

lords of dogtown! (:

Striker
21:53

mer: you're sweet. i love you. (:

aiya. i don't get it la. what's wrong with blogger.

whoohoo. i can get into friendster without having to disable the norton internet security. at least it isn't so dangerous this way.

school was okay today. chinese was boring la. my ting xie was pretty well done i think. haha. at least i knew how to write la, whether it's correct or not, i don't know man. heheh. geography is so map-reading. yawns. langtitude and longtitude. blah blah blah. recess was juice. but i got so tempted by lyanne and her two paus la. so i had to buy one myself. -.-' borrowed money from shahilia lor. aiya. next time. i have to bring some extra money just in case. sigh. home econs was boring la. i don't really like my work. i prefer charlene's. nice nice leh. so many pockets. so cool! hahaha. made social plans for after exams. lords of dogtown! whoohoohoo! (: made a list of movies to watch some more. hahaha. hm. i didn't pay attention during literature. hahaha. i couldn't be bothered to. heheh.

home immediately after that. chicken rice for lunch. wanted to study, mission failed. i fell asleep. it's not good la. tmr's chinese already. and i haven't studied the meanings or the sentences yet. i know the words. haha. aiyo. but no mood to study la. people have sore throat man. and it's irritating. must be too much potato chips. i really don't want to fall sick and this kinda timing man. it's not good. ):

i think what shahilia said, may be right. then again, i'm not sure.

i'm still thinking of sore throat. that's all. boohoo. ):

and kelly, i'm not going encounter with you. -tongue- i just don't feel like going man. good luck for chinese! hoho. like you need it man. peace! :D

Striker
17:57

02 October 2005

strong winds; i predict a heavy rain incoming. HA. it rained just now, heavily for like one minute. then drizzle for ten minutes. then rain heavily for another minute. a bit psycho, don't you think. haha.

i've been listening to michael buble so much recently. haha. i really want his 'it's time' album. (: and i really wanna go for his concert la. but 10october is exam time. sigh.

i love saturday late nights. watching comedy or action movies. like mr bean. haha.

church was okay yesterday.
depression carried on.
went for dinner at kfc with charmaine and kelly.
uncle jerry fetched me home. or you could say that.
picked up my parents. went to west coast to have bbq fish. (: i prefer alexandra village one though. heheh. i couldn't resist to go eat again. haha. didn't have much rice la, so it's okay.
took a car ride to jurong west. supposed to buy fruits, but closed.
came home. ate apple strudel. haha. it's nice. (:
my saturday late nights. ((:
switched between channels. so you can say i watched a whole lot of shows. haha.
switched between channel 5/8/hallmark/axn/starworld/mtv/disney.
went to sleep at 1.30.
next week = no saturday late nights. ): it's exams, so it's alright. i can survive one night. -nods-

how can i use foundation to hide it? i more likely need cover up. sigh.
give you adjectives. fun, painful, addictive and sadly, DEPRESSING.
maybe it's not just exam stress that maked me depressed. it's that, and i can't stop.

Striker
11:23

01 October 2005

what the hell is wrong with blogger la.

you're just not the same you i used to know and love. sigh. you've changed, eversince ___. it's not good man. i don't like. i thought we were great? i guess i was wrong wrong wrong. things can change, and i guess it did, but for the worse. and i'm not ___ okay. you're different.

how could i have degraded myself to this low? sigh. it's not good that i'm ___ again. and at a quite obvious spot, and so sharp that it's clear. and why ___. okay so i ___ something else over, but it's not as obvious. it has to stop, pronto. thursday i was bored, so i decided. but it's fun, and ___. so much so that it's addictive. it hurts. cuts.

dance was just screwed yesterday.
literature was 'staring at picture time'.
assembly was 'sing song time'.
came home. slept the whole afternoon away.
went tiong bahru for dinner with dad.
did a bit of math when i came home.
watched survivor.
slept.

i don't feel like going for church.
i don't feel like studying.
i don't feel like doing anything.
i don't feel like eating.
i feel, depressing.
this is worse than the last time, i really feel depressed. life really sucks.

it's october, ALREADY.
life hurts. it isn't fair. but hey, what's fair in life?
i feel distant.
things really aren't the same.
it's amazing how just one thing can change everything.

it sucks. BIG TIME.

Striker
11:51

Be a striker & score a goal
Be a goalkeeper & block it
Then, nobody wins

Wear the skipper's armband
Be the captain
You call the shots

Girl time. (n) A bonding ritual essential to females and indescribable to males, characterized by unmitigated chatter, sudden bursts of laughter, endless supplies of tissues, and chocolates.

- And the record keeps playing the same old song